Living with loss can be an exhausting and isolating experience. It seems that everyone tells you that it will get better with time, but there is no timetable for grief. It is a roller coaster, there are ups and downs, moments of pain intermixed with relief and as the years pass you may ask, why do I still suffer?
From an early age we start to form beliefs about the world and ourselves, some that help to propel us forward and others that limit who we are. The people around us such as family, friends, society and other dominant figures, all contribute to our overall sense of self. Our beliefs need to be dismantled, seen from a new perspective, then re-formed so we are no longer limited.
When I first arrived in Chiang Mai I thought living here was a breeze. Everyone told me about all the times they were homesick and how they questioned if life as an expat or nomad was the way to go. But that wasn’t something I imagined I’d go through, I’m very adaptable and not much seems to bother me. However, I still managed to enter a gloomy phase that started about a month ago.
Whenever someone asks me if I have any book recommendations I always ask if they have read anything by Osho. He is by far my favourite author and guru, he writes such deep thoughts yet they are so simply written that anybody can grasp them.
My journey so far has brought me moments of magic and some that were less than magical, but these are the ups and downs of life right? I can’t say I would be truly appreciative of what life has to offer had I not had the tall treacherous mountains to climb, for you cannot see light without the dark, hear music without the pauses or experience love without fear; life is full of duality so that you can come to appreciate the full spectrum.
Life is all about perception, it all depends on how you choose to see it. There are two outlooks in life, one full of optimism, and the other full of pessimism. A negative mindset will help you manifest more challenging situations, while a positive one will help highlight all that is good assisting you in your journey everyday. The question is which do you choose and which would you rather live with?
Just like the mind, fear can be tricky and even controlling. You can either give up your control and allow it to take the driver’s seat or you can allow it guide you as long as you’re holding the leash. For most of my life I allowed fear to drive me around, giving it the ability to control my path, often leading to dead-end streets and never-ending mazes. That was until about a year ago…